Trying to get There From Here: A Story of Addiction, Redemption, and the Grace of God

Most people only ever see the version of you that survived. They don't see the wreckage you crawled through to get there. For years, my life was defined by addiction, chaos, and running from the truth. I burned bridges, ruined relationships, lied to people who loved me, and convinced myself I was in control while everything around me collapsed. Cocaine. Alcohol. Manipulation. The prison system. Desperation. Numbness. Shame. I lived it. And for a long time, I believed that made me hopeless. But grace has a way of showing up where logic says it shouldn't. This isn't a polished, filtered, "church-safe" testimony. It's raw, honest, uncomfortable at times, and real. It's about the nights I shouldn't have survived, the consequences I couldn't escape, the moments I hit bottom, and the God who refused to let go of me even when I wanted nothing to do with Him. This book isn't just about addiction. It's about identity. About the battle between who you were and who you're called to be. About the quiet moments where God whispers through the noise: "Get up. You're not done." If you're fighting addiction, rebuilding your life, searching for hope, supporting someone who's struggling, or wondering if God still meets people in the mess—they do. He does. This story is proof.