Without You Here

Noreen, twenty-seven, is the same age as her beloved Aunt when she died from suicide. When Noreen was little, she had a special connection to her Aunt Nonie, her namesake and kindred spirit. They seem to understand each other in a way that no one else can. But what Noreen is too young to understand is that her aunt is spinning out of control, her grasp on reality slipping, her alcohol use accelerating, her personal life in shambles. Noreen's mom, Nonie's sister, tries to help—jobs, housing, counselors—but she's not getting better. The only thing Nonie can hold onto is her niece, whom she loves more than anything in the world. But when Noreen is playing on a tire swing under Nonie's supervision there's an accident, sending Noreen to the hospital and Nonie into a spiral from which she will not recover. From that day in 1980 to the last months of 1999, Noreen's life spirals around the axis of Nonie's suicide, tightening the past's pressure on the present. Now an adult, Noreen finds herself a young mother trapped in a marriage with a controlling, manipulative husband. Or is she? She is haunted by the memory of her aunt, and she is afraid her own grasp on reality slipping away. Without You Here is about generational trauma, mental illness, sloppy family dynamics, dangerous marriages, and the beautiful, redemptive nature of affection and love. In the end Noreen is left to ask: Will her life forever be defined by her aunt's zest for life or her untimely death? And can she stop history from repeating itself? What people are saying: "Original, complex, deftly scripted, emotionally engaging, and a compelling read from start to finish."— Midwest Book Review "Written with deep empathy, Without You Here is a novel of matriarchs, family trauma, and the stigma of mental illness."— 15 Small Press Books You Should Be Reading This Fall, Electric Lit "Achingly beautiful prose… unforgettable. "— Southern Literary Review "Exquisitely written, this is a debut with precise maturity, a necessary and timely story."—Louise Marburg, author of You Have Reached Your Destination "…Hesler captures the way memory weaves itself inextricably through the present."—Paulette Livers, author of Cementville "…Heartfelt, redemptive, and compassionate novel."—Sharon Harrigan, author of Half "…intricately composed as it is deeply moving."—Jane Alison author of Meander, Spiral, Explode; The Sisters Antipodes "…A moving and tender debut novel."—Julia Ridley Smith, Sex Romp Gone Wrong "…a masterful storyteller, both honest and hopeful."—Lori Ostlund, author of After the Parade