Under anesthesia

How dangerous can desire become when the other person closes his eyes? Fifty-year-old Antony Sojer is one of Atlanta's most respected anesthesiologists. Precise, controlled, and seemingly incapable of losing his composure, he spends his days in that suspended territory where consciousness is entrusted to another human being's hands. But away from the hospital, Antony hides a second life. In the basement of his home, he has built a private photography studio devoted to his obsession: capturing the male body when it stops performing, when strength gives way to vulnerability and every carefully constructed mask finally disappears. The men who agree to pose for him know about the nudity, the camera, and the generous compensation. What they do not know is the secret Antony keeps hidden behind passwords, concealed folders, and photographs no one was ever supposed to see. Then Ryan Cole enters his life. Young, confident, and fascinated by Antony's camera, Ryan returns to his studio again and again. But something doesn't add up. Gaps in his memory. Sensations he cannot explain. Photographs that seem to suggest something beyond an ordinary photo session. When Ryan finally discovers the truth, Antony prepares to lose everything. Instead, something happens that he never anticipated. Ryan doesn't simply want to know what happened while he was unconscious. He wants to explore that loss of control willingly, establishing his boundaries beforehand and consciously entrusting his vulnerability to Antony. What began as a secret and predatory ritual starts transforming into something entirely different: a dark bond shaped by desire, trust, fear, and power. For Antony, however, Ryan's choice exposes an even more disturbing truth. Perhaps what has obsessed him for years was never simply the sight of another man's sleeping body. Perhaps it was the privilege of being the only person who knew what had happened in the darkness. And at the heart of Antony's archive lies one photograph unlike all the others. A folder labeled SELF. Seventeen years earlier, someone photographed Antony the same way. When an old image, a mysterious symbol, and four letters—A.R.C.H.—begin connecting the present to a past Antony cannot fully remember, the game changes once again. Because some secrets refuse to stay buried forever. And someone may have waited seventeen years for Antony to finally be ready to open his eyes. UNDER ANESTHESIA is the first book in a dark MM psychological thriller series weaving mystery, desire, obsession, and suspense into a story where the line between control and vulnerability grows increasingly thin. When control becomes desire, who is really in whose hands?