SIMON’S JOURNAL

"I don't build engines instead of friends. I build them to stay myself—when the whole world demands that I disappear." This is not a victim's diary. It's a survivor's manifesto. Simon's Journal is an honest, technically precise, and poetically piercing account by an autistic engineer on how to live in a world designed for the "normal." There are no inspirational clichés here about "overcoming" autism. Only truth: — about how rituals prevent collapse, — how "maybe" destroys trust, — how sex without a clear "yes" becomes violence, — how schoolyard bullying leaves scars on the nervous system, — and how love is possible—but only if it begins with the question: "May I?" Simon doesn't ask you to "understand" him. He demands one thing: respect for his right to be himself—without a mask, without apologies, without compromising his nervous system. Every entry is like a turbine part: calibrated, essential, load-bearing. Every sentence is both a distress signal and a beacon: "You're not alone. You're not broken. You have the right to silence." For autistic readers—it's a mirror. For neurotypicals—it's a guide to respect. For everyone else—it's a reminder: humanity isn't measured by how much you resemble others, but by how fiercely you remain yourself—even when the world demands otherwise. "My 'yes' is real only if I say it myself— not if I echo yours." — Simon K.