Emotionally Slutty.

Editors: Tezra Lott and JonShee' Williams This book of poetry is for the shy, super, weird little girls and little boys out there in the world somewhere who feel so alone. The kiddos out there that may not have been the smartest or the prettiest in school but had so much heart and courage to chase their wildest childhood dreams, unapologetically and disrespectfully, To the voiceless goth chicks that never felt heard, seen, or valued, to the overweight emo chicks who were bullied in the hallways with kicking me signs on their backs. The super skinny girls just want a nice butt so the boys will ask her out to the dance. To all the super-smart nerdy girls who hid her intelligence just to fit in…This is for that cute queer boy who doesn't know if he likes girls or boys yet or how he even identifies sexually in this ever-changing world, but that's no one's business but his own. The girl got that was raped at the party because she had too many drinks and no one was there to give her a ride home, and when she told someone they denied her truth and reality. This one is for you. For the young woman was deemed successful at 28 and was losing her mind eating and drinking her feelings away. I internalized all my emotions to please my wounded family but it was finally time for me to be free and to fly solo. Meanwhile, I buried 3 of my dear friends to suicide, addiction, and domestic violence. —This is my survival guide, I am baring my gentle soul. A journey from my childhood trauma to my strained relationship with my Mother and Biological Father. Working really hard in corporate America. My high-powered career in the hospitality industry couldn't save me from my depression. I had to shoot all my demons in the head. I had to lean into the pain. To my fall from grace in a global pandemic. How my healing journey triggered my full-blown abandonment issues with my family. Growing up hiding in plain sight. Deep-rooted trauma bonds with my best friends throughout the years of my life. Who I put on pedestals for over 2 decades who sadly let me down. The betrayal was the plot twist I did not want to admit to myself. I am burying my wounded inner child. Authentically, unapologetically and emotionally. This is MY poetic story of finding my whole healed self. I found my true strength to come back from the dead. Coming back for everything the HATERS told me my entire life I could never have… Now it is all on me.—Remember the black sheep eventually will end up being the GOAT, in the very end. The good guy lives long enough to eventually become the villain. Everyone is "the villain" in someone's story. I just happen to be the most real bitch in every room I walk in. Fuck it #MASKOFF ??Shee' xo ????